A New Perspective

* Warning: Heavy thoughts, and there is not one cute picture of Quinn in this post.

I am going to try to put all my thoughts into words. I feel like the Lord has shown me a few things recently. Since we have joined Bayou City Fellowship I have been challenged through the church body, my pastor, and serving. It has been really neat to see where the Lord has changed my heart and mind this past couple of years.

I have never been around so many people that are SO passionate, but it’s more than passion. It’s the action behind their passion.. The Lord has stirred in me to have that ACTION with my passion. My passion use to be starting a new Bible study for the season, or serving at a one-time event, or serving in the church nursery, ETC. These are all good things and I do each of them, but it is all through the church. I feel like I have neglected the difficult things, which are outside of the church…such as building relationships with strangers, caring for the need IN PERSON, and flat out sharing the gospel.  I wait for the church to bring the opportunities to me, when really these  opportunities are right in front of my face. I have been so blind to see it, because it is way out of my comfort zone for me to take an opportunity on my own…. outside of the church.

Our pastor preached a message about believers having different passions…. It could be Cambodia, India-Sex-trafficking, prison ministries, the homeless, Sudan, ETC. He said, where ever you feel like you need to serve do it in Jesus name. IT might not be the same passion as the person next to you, but the one thing in common is we are ALL building the kingdom of God in Jesus name. That was refreshing to me to hear because I feel like there are so many things that I want to give/ serve, but I need to go where the Lord leads me. I don’t want to hop on a band wagon because everyone else is doing it. I shouldn’t feel guilty if the Lord has me serving in a different direction. I think Satan puts those thoughts in my head. BUT I need to be aware of my passion and GO where the Lord leads me. ( Whatever that Looks like.)

This is so the Lord….

Quinn and I were  checking out at Target today, and this sweet lady complimented my wedding ring. And then she complimented Robby, because I told her he picked it out. ( Because she asked) In 2 minutes of checking out I knew this lady hated her ring, and pawned it because she needed to buy diapers for her babies. Her marriage went south, and now she is living from pay check to pay check providing for her babies. She has worked at Target for 3 years, and wants to apply for a customer service job because she loves people. Ya’ll, that was two minutes of checking out.I know the people behind my were like, “can you hurry.” But I wanted to stay and ask more, but she was obviously busy.  If God did not change my perspective, I would have said Thank you to her compliment and not asked any questions and walked out. I pray that I run into her again and again at Target and the Lord opens doors. I left Target in tears. I looked down at my wedding ring, and had a new perspective. No, I do not feel guilty that I have a pretty wedding ring (Ha!) But just in tears that this lady is working pay check to pay check to survive, and ALL I want her to know that this diamond on my finger does not not bring me hope, nor eternal life. Lord, Please open doors.  I am praying that I do not miss these opportunities that the Lord has right before me. I pray that my eyes continue to be open.

I love these specific lyrics from “Hosanna”

Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity