Today, we are trying to get back on schedule! It was definitely a long weekend from being sick, and going down to one nap. I have no clue what schedule we are on these days. Honestly, I feel like I have been trying to get on a schedule since I moved to Houston, which has now been 10 months. I would never in a million years think it would have been this difficult to find my niche, and have my roots planted by now. The funny thing is, I am doing things that I never thought I would do. One of them is BSF ( Bible Study Fellowship) I made fun of BSF to my mother because I thought they were way too conservative for me, and it was a bunch of Old ladies. Both are still true, but I am loving every minute of it. Am I making new friends?? Not really. Am I being challenged and stretched to no end? Yes. I feel like this is the common theme in my life right now, CHALLENGED.
I still long for a deep friendship(s) in my life right now. I get in these Funks. ( I am definitely in one today.) I am still trying to figure out where I fit in, and what I am suppose to be doing with my time as a stay-at- home MOM. Don't get me wrong, I love every minute being home with Quinn and watching him grow right before my eyes. My Mom gave me a devotional from our church yesterday. I picked it up this morning for the first time. God is so timely. Today's title was Significance. The first sentence of the devotional was..."One of the deepest human needs is a sense of significance." It talks about how those who live for God will bear fruit that last forever. On a side note, I am reading the Radical right now, which is definitely rocking my word! Saving those thoughts for a different post. This is what the Lord showed me through this devotional. It is important to be significant if it is for eternal purposes, not selfish worldly purposes. When it says "bear fruit" I take it as, it takes time and can be difficult. So, I pray that I am striving for eternal significance.
I guess I should go change the title to my blog. I labeled it "Back on Schedule" but I went somewhere different with this post.
On another note, this blog was obviously about my feelings today. Quinn is feeling better. I had to take him to the Dr. again yesterday and he had an ear infection, so we are on an antibiotic right now.
4 comments:
Hey girl...I am right there with you! I totally get what you are saying about both things- finding my place AND trying to figure out what being a SAHM means for who i "am." Thank you for the reminder that our eternal significance is what matters most...even when I am knee deep in bottles and laundry:)
i am right there also friend. although SUPER far from motherhood, i know it's going to be a battle to find "where I belong" in my new life here in Oklahoma. i know i want depth and meaning too and i usually want it QUICKLY, so it will be interesting to see how it all works out. i'll definitely pray for you if you promise to pray for me! ;)
i think though it's important to remember that our significance/purpose/meaning ultimately flows from WHO WE ARE not WHAT WE DO. We our heirs to a kingdom. Redeemed and deeply loved. Everything that matters will flow naturally from living a life knowing WHO WE BELONG TO. It makes all the difference.
love you Katie - enjoyed hearing these parts of your heart!
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I love you friend! Great thoughts and encouragement to me.
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